The felling of love

Growing up, the felling of some one loving you is important... I was love for a little while when I was young and 'easy' to mange... my mom stopped loving me sometime between my 6Th grade year of school and my 8Th grade year... I missed that felling so much that I started to search for it every where... thinking that maybe something could make up for it... Then I found someone who loved me and for awhile everything was perfect... but in the end... I realised that it wasn't real... the problem is that I look for love everywhere... I want it so much that I really started to push it away... and now I'm so obsessed with it that it is everything to me... But Im working on stopping wanting it so much... It isnt easy but Im working on it the resriant it takes is alot...